Reserved

Because I don't know what to write in this second post, I think it's not a bad idea to introduce a little about myself.

    My name is Novia. I am more reserved and less social. Even at home, I rarely speak. I find that talking drains my energy too quickly, causing me to become tired and unmotivated. However, this does not imply that I dislike talking. I enjoy conversing with others as long as I am not the one who initiates the conversation. Maybe it's because I'm too reserved, I don't know what to say or talk to others. I just couldn't find any topic. As a result, people perceive me as a cold, intimidating, arrogant, grumpy, and self-centered person. I'm guessing that everyone I've met thinks of me in this manner. Because of this personality, my friends also thought that I avoided them or didn't want to be friends with them anymore because I rarely chatted or talked to them. I don't mind. I mean, it's kind of frustrating, but, it doesn't mean that I have to change myself because I am afraid of losing them. I will lose myself in the end, and I don't want that. At least, I want them to know that I always there for them if they need me. (Why this is sound like a letter? I'm not writing to anyone though. Am I? LOL whatever)

    Whereas, my older sister is very talkative, unlike me. She loves to talk about everything. Everything that happens in her days even in small things. I can sense that my mom likes her much more than me because she loves talking also. Well, unlike her, I'm more like my dad. Besides that, my sister loves me too much that she can't stand even five hours not talking to me. She's always trying to find a way so that she could talk to me no matter how many times I ignored her. Yes, I am a bad sister. I do like to ignore her because she talks too much. Actually, it's not that annoying. It's just become a habit because it's fun teasing her like that. I feel bad sometimes. But, whether I ignore her or not, she knows well that I love her too and I never mean bad with my actions. I just have different ways to express my love.

Hmm, I think this is enough for this week. Gee, I'm so embarrassed. I hate my own flaws, but it's not that bad I guess. Well, whatever, see you next week then.